It wasn't that long ago.
In fact, some days it feels like yesterday. But honestly, other days I feel so far removed. But I am not.
I remember the sadness. Especially around Christmas.
Everyone posts pictures of their babies or growing bumps. They talk about announcing pregnancy to family or their babies first Christmas (sorry!).
All I wanted for four Christmases was to share the holidays with our own baby(ies). I pictured the mantle with stockings and the childish laughter opening presents on Christmas morning.
At some point, I thought the day would never come. I had even resigned myself that it was Jeremy and I. That's it.
All when I had nearly given up the hope, Max and Harper were conceived. I was the girl that announced pregnancy at Christmas last year and am celebrating their first Christmas this year.
But I still remember.
I know how fortunate and blessed we are. I know that I sometimes take our miracles for granted. There are so many good friends and wonderful people in this community that yearn for my excitement at this holiday season.
So, tonight...Jeremy and I plan on praying and lighting a candle in honor of our struggle and in hope for those that are still struggling.
I do hope that you have an amazing holiday that is filled with love from family and friends.
Blessings your way!