I do regret not making this space a priority. I am not going to make any promises but I do want to try and write more. It may be very therapeutic.
I have a million things to say. But let's start with Christmas!
Christmas was a great time as a kid. I remember the excitement and anticipation. I loved our traditions and I loved the idea of Santa. Heck, I think I finally found out the truth when I was 12 or 13. I just wanted that magic to last.
That's what is great about having kids over Christmas. Bringing that Christmas magic alive to them is amazing. Seeing Christmas through their eyes makes my heart melt and it brings back that childhood magic times 100!
We tried to take the kids to any holiday event that kids would enjoy. But I have to admit, we had just as much fun as they did.
|They had so much fun decorating the tree this year.|
|I love a good crying Santa picture. They are so cute!|
|My whole family (all of them!) went to the Country Club Plaza for dinner and a sleigh ride. It was so much fun and a lasting memory. We need to start making new memories and traditions because Christmas is so different without our Dad.|
|Photo bombed on the Plaza|
|Weather has been so odd here. Weeks leading up to Christmas were so warm for the season. A week before Christmas, Jeremy and I were removing leaves from the yard. Crazy weather!|
|We made cookies to give to friends. And made cards for their teachers at school. They had so much fun!|
|There is a Magic Tree. It is gorgeous.|
|We went through the drive through park with Christmas Lights. The kids got into jammies and got to sit in the front seat.|
|We had to wait in a long slow-moving line for 45 minutes and they did fantastic.|
|We visited our train station downtown to go through Santa's train. We stayed to look at a couple giant trees too.|
|We then decided to make our own train. Icing was the real attraction here.|
I feel like all of these events, outings and fun were good for them. But they also took my mind off of the idea of spending Christmas without my dad. They distracted me from the deep sadness and anxiety I had. I am not sure what I would do without them. I think our whole family would have been pretty depressed without these two. They brought laughter and smiles during the holiday season. The way Dad would want. We had a noticeable hole where Dad should be. His chair, his laugh, his smile, his prayer, etc. We missed him but we also enjoyed family time. Together. The only way Dad would have it.
|Christmas with Jeremy's family|
|Missing a couple nieces and their husbands but this is most of the crew|
|We love our Nonnie|
|"Mama, Santa came!"|
|All 4 of us|
|Their smiles are really funny lately.|
Part of the Max and Harper's present from Mommy and Daddy was their big kid beds. My sister, brother-in-law, niece and nephew watched them for their first ever overnight. I was sad, but it was time. I was mainly worried I wouldn't be there when they needed me. Come to find out...they are just fine without me. Sad. But it was great to have a date night with Jeremy. We also put together their toddler beds while they were gone. That way they could come in and see them. They have been sleeping amazingly! I wish we had done it sooner. They are sleeping rock stars.
|Max loves firetrucks. And Paw Patrol. We blew his mind with this one.|
|First night in his big kid bed.|
|Princess Harper's bed (this is how she refers to it)|
|She got a little crazy the first night. I had to move her. The 2nd night I found her on the floor at 2am. She is staying in her bed better now.|
So Christmas was pretty great. I hope to make other posts in the next couple days. I go back to work on Monday and need to make sure I am getting caught up. I hope you all had a fantastic holidays. I am now going to spend my afternoon getting caught up on reading your blogs. I haven't read in a month so I am sure I missed quite a bit.